Feeling pretty down recently

Now that is normal - the moon is beautiful and by feeling that way you are showing gratitude which is a valuable emotion. If you can be sad and still find beauty in this world, then you are doing alright sista

Gem Sweet heart.... i send you love and light

harmony

Thank you. I am getting kinda tired of crying/having these emotional releases, even if it is prompted by beauty, but obviously I need to do it.

I just have to share this. It started going through my head while I was in the shower so I looked it up.



It seems like it's written by a spirit gude... and it's a good song for girls. :)

Healing vibes for Gem!
I have a number of aquamarine rings and one blue topaz. Lovely!

Ooh Gem, nice pick up on ONJ's song. You do know her connection to the Pleiadians don't you? Perhaps not. Obviously they know how to get through to you - through song. Take this as a sign of support darling heart and have faith that the tears are driving you towards a better place in your life.

Thanks Nightie!

Ohhhh... no I don't know about any link between Olivia and Pleiadians... I was going to Google Olivia yesterday to find out where she 'fits in' in the spiritual world, but didn't get around to it. Sounds fascinating. My thought yesterday was that she must be an alien because she's just too pretty to be human! lol ... but yes, I did take the song as a supportive sign.

I'm going through a bit of negativity now as well, working on trying to 'let go' of what I perceive to be one person's selfish little attack on my happiness. I could be completely wrong about it, but the way it looks is really making me feel angry, insulted and territorial... so my solar plexus is getting the worst kind of workout... I would like to be able to just drop it, but at the same time I don't want to find myself repressing it to have it return in a worse form later on. I ran the situation past my friend, and she thought it sounds like I do have something to be annoyed about... and I don't believe in hiding from things, I would rather face them. But maybe this is less about facing a perceived situation, and more about facing my emotions. I don't know... but I do know that I can't hide from my feelings. I'm feeling an awareness of my solar plexus right now and I'm not really sure what to do with it. Grabbing a citrine to draw off my negative energy...

Oh Gem, sorry to hear about this. Have you tried detaching the cords between you and this person who attacked you?

Well they haven't attacked me directly, so part of me feels like I'm over-reacting. The thing is that the way I see it, and the way my friend sees it also, is that this woman tried to make an excuse to get Mr Gem's number (this happened on a social networking site we are all on) - fully AWARE that he is in a relationship with me. He doesn't have a cellphone though, so I followed through on her 'excuse' and offered my number instead should she need to contact us... she has since completely ignored my offer and not even mentioned it when we have been face to face since... There is always the possibility that my friend are I are jumping to the wrong conclusion. But the thought of someone disrespecting me and my relationship in that way makes my blood boil.

Thing is that I've worked hard to let go of incidents like this from the past... in a relationship, it's not someone's looks that matters to me, BUT Mr Gem is a very very attractive looking man - and so over the past (almost-) four years I have had to deal with the fact that my partner attracts a lot of female attention. There have been times where it's been extremely upsetting to see some woman openly trying to crack onto him right in front of me - like I'm not even there. So I finally feel like I'm getting over all of that, and then this girl comes along seeming to start doing the same thing. So maybe my feelings are partly paranoia/remaining emotions from past incidents. But, my friend thinks maybe they are justified.

Also, forgot to mention that the person mentioned above is a neighbour here at our new place. But this house... I know I was guided here and that my guides and spirit friends, whoever they all may be, wouldn't send me to a house where I would be unhappy. I don't believe for a second that all the messages I was getting... the pigeon messenger followed by the 'Welcome Home' song on the same day... were sending me to a house of stress... So, me is confuzed. Maybe it will all just work out so long as I'm confident in myself.

Mind you, it may be that by gently 'busting' her the way I did - ie without any aggression at all, my confident offer of *my* phone number (as Mr Gem really doesn't have a phone) might have been enough to let her know I was on to her and that it wasn't cool. (Assuming that I'm not jumping to conclusions)... I actually had a dream last night that she came to our house to use the toilet and she made a huge stinky mess in our toilet bowl; she came out of the bathroom looking sheepish and embarrassed and she asked how she could clean it up. I was offhand with her and told her to use the Toilet Duck cleaner. lol. Well I can hope that my dream somehow means that she realises she wrongly pooed in someone else's toilet so to speak, and that she's prepared to clean it up... LOL... I've calmed down a bit now...

Hahahahaha! Toilet humor cracks me up. Sorry. Seems to me that if her intentions were innocent, she would have accepted 'your' number. So I don't blame you for being upset.

Oh thumbs up Gem - you are sharp!! Nicely played hun

I thought the toilet dream was funny too. haha Goth, well I have a finely tuned instinct for this kind of thing. She hasn't made a peep ever since, but I'm sure that the fox energy I talked about in the animal totems thread will keep me alert.

Go fox energy! Go! Good job darlin'!

LOL!

Ugh, I've gone back to feeling awful again. It's about something else altogether now, but I feel like I've been slimed or something. It's all too complicated to post about but I feel yucky and deeply upset. And the thing is that even though Mr Gem is not responsible for it, I feel like his input is what led me to this and I wish I had never listened to him. I'm feeling so upset over it that I feel like it's driven a massive wedge into our relationship and I don't know if I can get over it. I just know I cannot take one more piece of his interference. I feel like I don't want to speak to him, but this morning I did tell him that he has been wrong, and that I will make the decisions in my life and that he should keep out of it. I don't want to make him feel bad, but I do want to reclaim my boundaries.

Aw sweetie, I empathise with you. Life has been up and down emotionally for me too lately. It can really mess with you. But I think you are traveling okay - you acted positively and made a healthy choice - to reclaim your boundaries. Being assertive is a necessity and allows the other person to know where we stand without infringing on their rights. I know you care deeply about Mr Gem and don't want to hurt his feelings while at the same time you need to let him know where the boundary is between you. I am sure he also can appreciate this even if it does hurt his feelings or pride hearing you ask him to basically 'butt out' of your decisions. Take care of you

Thanks Goth. I'd like to think that he's been giving me this input because he thinks it's the right thing, but it's gotten to the point where the situation feels so wrong to me. Maybe all this is partly my fault for not shielding myself before I go into the situation and for allowing this other person to permeate my aura and my psyche... but if it is that bad, then maybe I should just not be in the situation to begin with. That in itself is another 'boundaries' issue and if people are crossing my psychic boundaries then I would rather stay away. I'm not sure whether they know quite how sensitive I am to others' energies sometimes, but I so often end up feeling like this --> imbalanced at the end of it. They also act in ways/say things that make me feel weird/uncomfortable. I've just done a little bit of aura clearing and I'm feeling slightly better at the moment.

I've also been getting hyper emotional because I am missing my grandma. We were out for lunch the other day when 'Hymn to Her' by the Pretenders came on the radio and I burst out crying; that is the song that came on the radio the night my grandma died when we (my family) had all come home from the hospital and we were just all sitting in silence to this song. After that night over the next several days, the song would come back on the radio and one night it even got stuck and repeated again and again; and now every time I hear it I get emotional. And then the other night I had a dream that my sister and I were in a room and my grandma came in to pay a visit; it was really nice and a happy time, but I can't remember anything she said now. Then last night I told my mum about the dream and as soon as I started saying it, I wanted to cry and cry. I know she is ok and everything but it is still hard sometimes to be separated. sighhhhhhhhhh.

Oh well. I'm calm again now.

It is never easy to lose the one's we love. My Dad passed away two years ago. I have lost both my Grandmothers and wasn't even born when both my Grandfathers died. I have lost aunts and uncles and a step nephew and...the list goes on. You will always have your wonderful memories of your Grandmother. Perhaps she will come again in a dream and you will remember her message.

I am so sorry you are feeling stressed. I'm sure you and Mr. Gem will be able to work out any problems that come your way. ~**Hugs**~

Thanks Nightie. Yeah... it was hard to lose my grandad as well, but she and I just had a bond. Life goes on but there are times (9 years later) where it is still just overwhelming. I always miss her the most when life feels a bit harder than usual... in life, she would always drop everything to come and help me, even when I was kid and I really was just being a brat. She would always ALWAYS stick up for me, like this emoticon... Which is just the way I am for the people I love. lol. That similarity makes me smile.

Maybe, just maybe she is sending you the song to let you know who is around and to remind you of that similarity. Sounds like you need to draw on that strength right now to get through this current situation. If that song is following you, I would put my money on it being your grandma paying a visit and trying to let you know she is around you.

One thing that struck me about your post Gem is that you talk about other people and their actions. Sadly we cannot change what other people do or say but we can choose to change how we react to them. You really hit on it with the idea of boundaries. I had a situation in my life this week that brought me to an uncomfortable position because of what the other person had said and the anger they put out. I shifted the boundary and chose not to let it into my space. Simply took the phone off the hook and told myself it was their stuff and chose not to sacrifice my self-esteem over it. We all need to guard our inner treasures and prevent them being stolen or lost. I am talking about self-esteem, confidence, personality, hope, faith, joy, love...those kinds of treasures. Whether other people are aware of their actions or not, we can all care for ourselves and make choices according our needs. Self-care is important. Especially for empaths or sensitives. And remember - you are here to be YOU. So create the you, you want to be

Good point about the song, Goth - I think you are right.

Also you are so right that I react to what other people do. I'm very aware of this and I know it's not right, because I can choose how I react; I also realised since the incident the other day that I have *got* to keep my boundaries up and be able to detach better. And when I think, "ok, so there are people coming into my space and doing this or that - why am I attracting this?", the only answer I can come up with is that maybe my boundaries aren't strong enough to begin with. Maybe my psychic sponge-ness really is an open invitation that reads "Free energy party here - come get drunk and spew and don't clean up afterwards! That's cool!" ........ I think some affirmations are in order. The weird thing is that people really seem to *want* to get into my space, and I really appreciate the people/friends/family who don't do that. Thank you for casting a little more light on this!!!

Hey this is something I am affected by too. Boundaries are a big ongoing issue for me. And like you, I came to the realisation that if I don't enforce them then I get very messed up by allowing people to come in and drain my energy. That's when I become reactive instead of proactive and relationships get strained or worse - I get stuck in unhealthy situations. Being sensitive makes it worse. We do attract alot of stuff to ourselves merely by the fact that we sense and feel alot more deeply than most other people who would probably not be so affected by the same experiences. Geez, I can have a negative encounter with someone and carry the residue of it for days or even weeks constantly thinking and reacting to it and losing so much energy to the situation long after it has ended physically. There's one particular past relationship that still affects me this way to the point that the feelings are so raw it is like I am still in the situation and trying to get out.

Like you, I search for positive tools to turn it around and I think affirmations are a start. We do have to bolster ourselves with new messages to replace the negative tapes that keep us stuck. My problem is worrying about where a situation might have gone even when it didn't. I have to learn to disconnect and let go - when it's over, it's over and move on. Don't keep torturing myself with unfounded fears that will not eventuate into reality. I try to tell myself that every situation is an opportunity for learning and try to find a positive to take away from it even if it is 'well now I know where my boundaries need to be'. It pays to be vigilant because let's face it - nobody else is going to nurture your inner self. We all need to be our own guardian and show ourselves the unconditional love of a parent to a child, protecting and empowering that part of ourselves that has to live in the real world and deal with these situations as they come along.

Yessss, I know how you feel! It is sometimes really annoying being a sensitive person, when I look at other people just getting on with their lives and not having experiences like getting disoriented and confused because you're near someone with crown chakra issues... or getting ungrounded because you're walking beside someone who's head/energy is in the clouds... or spilling your drink because you touched your friend who just happened to spill their drink 2 seconds ago... I just pick it all up and experience it... So for me it's probably not only my boundaries, but also an issue of grounding and centering. And then there's the fact that I'm what a psychic friend of mine called a 'lightweight' - literally and figuratively; my physical size (I'm an elf-like 5'2" and naturally tiny) sorta goes hand in hand with how I experience the world... ie it doesn't take much of anything to affect me; food, drink, relaxant, stimulant, heat, cold, bodywork, you name it I'm sensitive to it. No wonder I love getting out of my body and having good times in my dreams/on the astral plane!